When I was young I didn't fully understand who God was but growing up I have learned a lot through school.  This year in high school i have really started to think about my relationship with God because we have really been talking about it in my theology class.  I think about my faith every time I think about aunt that passed away from breast cancer last year and I knew that god had a plan for her and her family.  I also think about all of my close friends that have had a person close to them that has passed away and close that brought them to God through those tough times.
     I feel that I have become closer to God through these tragedies because it gets me to think that I am lucky to have all of the people in my life still with me today.  I learned to be thankful for the people that God has put into my life because i never know if it will be the last time I'll ever see them.  This really changed my life because i would always go to the beach with my aunt and her family and this year was so different without her because she brought so much joy to everyone at the beach.  When I first heard that she had passed away I was in shock and didn't want to believe that she was gone.
     [Devastated] As I heard this terrible news I felt that there was an emptiness inside of me and a chuck of my life was gone on a matter of seconds.  I just wanted to sit in that red chair all day and think of all of the great times that I had with her but I couldn't just sit there I had to get up and do something  to get it off my mind.  I couldn't think straight when I heard it because everything was in a blur.  Insides empty.